During my conversations with Dr. Wendy, the subject came up about late life exhibitions.  I was online doing some research on painting, and came across a water colorist by the name of Hercules Brabazon Brabazon, who had his first exhibition at age 71. The old adage is true: “It’s never too late to be who you might have been.” George Eliot.

Quote: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/george_eliot_161679


Had a 1-2-1 With Dr. Steph. Had a good talk about the FMP. Question arose whether I can exhibit images from a former module, that is part of the growth of my work over the MA, Steph mentioned that I should consult Wendy about that. I feel that if the work has grown out of former work, then it should be part of the FMP exhibit. I will discuss with Wendy when she returns to the module

Guest Lecture: Anastasia Samoylova:

Watched the recorded lecture, and learned a few interesting things.  That studio visits seems to be a way for an artist to get recognition, so one must be open to visits by clients.

I liked they way she used current social media to see what’s “happening” in the photographic world, and applying that to one’s own practice.

Learned about the Claude Glass, a black convex mirror that subdues colors of the landscape. I am thinking about using something similar to photograph reflections of images I will be using in my image construction process.

Interesting to note how her work as an architect photographing her models of building transitioned into her present practice.

5 amazons of the Russian avant-garde.  Learned about a few more artists from the 20’s Varvara Stepanova and Liubov Popova. Both painters, and how her work was influenced by theses artists work. I have come to the conclusion that to be an artist one must paint, other domains can never approach a painters art. Even a brilliant photographer still yearns for that artist ability that a painter has. I presume that is why each and everyone always refers to some painter. I know this is true for myself as well. I have again picked up the paintbrush There is some creative satisfaction that it gives that is just not attainable by photography alone, so maybe two separate domains they will remain.

Like the fact that she got an editor to edit her work as well as crop it. Her framing is not that good to begin with, so Campany really worked with the formal elements in the crop. Circle, square, line, color, all extending beyond the frame, while all her work includes it all within the frame.

Interesting and informative guest lecture.



This week had a 1-2-1 with Wendy, went well. What  I am most pleased about it Wendy’s ability to keep me on track. That is to focus on the work. She mentioned wants me to keep on shooting new work, and to start writing down my thoughts about my work, in terms of a book. Mentioned that she enjoyed the work more when it was accompanied by an explanation.

I have long agreed with explaining the work, I think this is the basis of conceptual art, that the artist explain what the work is about, as opposed to the audience ‘figuring it out for themselves’  Since beginning the MA, I have come full circle on this, i.e. explain what the work is about. Abstract photography is very difficult, as it is with abstract painting to figure out what the artist is trying to express without some form of insight into the work. Thus the value of the artist statement, the image title, and the image caption. I think now, that if I would like my readers to comprehend the work, they need to be given clues.

Wendy recommended that I look at the work of poet Ian Hamilton Finlay, a Scottish poet, writer, artist and gardener. I understand the gardener part now, it goes one time to breath, to get away from the domain that dominates ones life 24hrs a day. So I have gone back to painting, this gives me a break from the photography, and it is also very relaxing and inspiring.

Had a group session with Paul Clements,  he was my tutor on the last module, and he was very helpful in helping me understand that art is about destruction and reconstruction, this together with shifting my perspective a bit from hunting to farming photography, has helped me think about growing images and constructing them as opposed to going on the hunt which I was doing at the beginning of the MA ( ye good ol’ Brassai, Cartier Bresson and that ilke) The limit of the thought was in the moment, however as that has now been expanded to think first, then make the image, as opposed to the good old ‘decisive moment’ has changed my approach, not that I do not appreciate the representational image process, I do, however the abstract has always held my interest, but before the image farming process, I did not have a methodology in that wing of the building, so never explored that part of the image making process. Now with image construction, I am able to build an image on an idea. This has been most beneficial to me as an artist and in my practice. This module I am concentrating on the image construction, blending the old with the new, like the temple builders of old, they always incorporated parts of the old temple into the new one. So I will be using elements I have accumulated of the past years as part of my image construction, and go out and photograph new images and construct my photographs.


Week 5 begins: I have made the submission for the FMP. I decided to do the submission and proposal completely under my own power. I did not consult with any-one about the concept, or any parts of the proposal, I did not even have it proof-read for mistakes. I wanted to do it on my own, completely, from beginning to end.

Of course, after the submission, I noticed mistakes (spelt my professors’s last name incorrectly) and some other spelling mistakes. Just the kind of faux-pas that I normally make in these situations. It always amazes me how these mistakes are not caught before a submission of a paper, or when writing a letter. Only caught after the fact.

I will wait and see what the outcome of the proposal is and what my pass mark is. I feel somewhat okay about fulfilling the learning outcomes, and trying to get my idea down and the grade will of course reflect this. I felt well prepared after the last module (702) I am very glad that it came late in the MA (The 4th module) as opposed to the 2nd module. This is because I began in January of 2018. Had I began in September 2017, Module 702 would have followed Module 701, instead of being a year later.  Module 702 was very challenging, however it was very well supported by Dr. Steph Cosgrove, and Paul Clements. I managed a distinction, so it was an indicator over the former modules that I had made progress.

However, the module was very heavily tutored (and I really needed this) So this module (705) I want to go it solo to see if what I have gleaned over the course so far has made an improvement of my cognitive functions as to apply the knowledge to my current practice and present module.

I found it strange that the FMP was ordered so early in this module. I would have liked a few more week to reflect, however, having to fulfill the submission early has been very beneficial. I may not have managed to get my ideas and concepts across critically enough, but it was a good foundation.  After the submission, I did have further clarification on my subject matter, and now will re-write it myself and fine-tune the project. I take courage from a fellow student (Rita Rodner)  (who’s FMP proposal was available to us.)  She also spoke to us on the last Module about her FMP. She did mention, that if one is not happy with the work, to keep on working at it till one is satisfied. Also it was only towards the very end of the FMP module that she got her act to-gether with how she was actually going to execute it.

I have been having nightmares about my FMP, every idea seemed great before I go to bed and the next morning I wake up hating everything about it.  This has been a pattern throughout the MA, also, at the beginning of every module, I feel like one of those bad dreams of going to school and you get there. Every time I begin a module I feel like I am beginning the whole MA all over again. By the end of it I feel like I have accomplished something. This time I took note fo those feelings, because when I started my FMP, again I felt like all my idea were useless, the project I had picked was waste of time, boring, uncreative.

I made a promise to myself at the beginning of the MA. I would enter a mechanic and leave an artist. This has been my battle this whole 1.5 years. I keep on sliding back to the mechanic. It has also been a battle my entire film and photo career. Always working on some-one else film, some-one else project, some-one else ideas. So I decided no more of the kind of work. I am done with it. That  ‘Fence’  in my life needs be crossed/vanquished/bridged once and for all. This is why my FMP subject matter is about “FENCES”   not the physical kind the mental kind. The physical is the mechanic part of me, the mental is the artist part of me, that is fenced in. I know it, have always known it, now, positions and practice really defines the loci of my self and the work I do.

Weeks 1 thru 4 Coursework

This week I presented my Petcha Kucha and met with Dr. Wendy for my 1-2-1. Feedback is positive. Wendy recommended that I make it personal, which I think is a good idea, because most work is personal, and as to is my aim for the MA to come out with a body of work that is my own, as opposed to working on other peoples projects. I think this will be a good move forward, a kind of practice to wards that aim.  It will test the old adage, practice makes perfect.

Of course this entails opening ones self up, and open to criticism. So this insecurity creeps up, it is yet another “Fence” that needs to be crossed. I paraphrase Gertude Stein who said that as a writer, if one cannot write the truth, why do it?  And, she is correct, however, it’s easy to understand the advice, however, the application of it is a different matter and I find a fence, and resistance, because its difficult and scary.

I have always loved quotes. They are truths that help me get through difficult time.  Cognitively, I get them, however the application of them is a fence I have to cross. This module will be about crossing fences, difficulties, fears and challenges that I have battled my entire life with the subjects of film, photography, and art.

Here is my PK task for the first week:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YGwyXHVcPuU